Sunday, November 17, 2013


I hate when my daughter is sick-she had an ear infection, fever, and a terrible cough that lasted four days. And as much as I hate to see her sick like that, it also meant that we had four days of cuddling, not leaving her side, sleeping in her room at night, kissing her forehead and telling her that she will feel better soon, and watching lots of movies together and eating meals on the couch.

Once she stopped waking up coughing every few hours during the night I made my way back in my bed and, I have to admit I missed being there with her.

watching charlotte's web

first snowfall

Last week, we had our fingerprints done as part of the process for adoption and she thought it was so cool that she got her own prints done to take home with her. I have been explaining adoption to her as best as I can at a level that she will understand. She told me how she is going to bring the paper with her fingerprints on it in for sharing day at school and tell everyone that she had her prints done so "they" (she was referring to DCF maybe?) know that we have a perfect family. I am not sure where she got the "perfect" from, but I gently reminded her that no family is "perfect", and she replied, "well, we have a good family." I am glad she feels this way :)

I was feeling overwhelmed with everything going on lately-working two jobs, projects around the house, the adoption process, trying to keep up with the housework, making sure that I carve out plenty of time for Kennadie, and I have been seriously thinking about finishing my degree and have been meeting and talking with adviser's, getting all the paperwork in etc. It all became too much. I would like to think I can handle everything, but the reality of it is is that I can't and that's OK. The adoption and finishing school are two huge decisions and both require a lot out of me and are what I need to be focusing on right now. I made the decision to stop writing for Bounce Energy because I just couldn't keep up with it all. It wasn't an easy decision, but I have to start letting some things go in order for me to be happy and calm and not so stressed and overwhelmed.

And after talking about going to Florida for almost two years now it's finally booked and we can not wait. So far, Kennadie is most excited about swimming with the dolphins and seeing Opa and Oma. Growing up, our vacations to Florida were always my favorite vacations and they hold so many special memories and I am so happy that she will get to experience this, especially with Opa and Oma-just like we did when we were kids.

phone dump-

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