Nicole's adoption was finalized on May 5th. And there were so many times over the last six years that I never thought we would be celebrating another child. There were so many times where I thought it was impossible almost, that it would never happen. From that very moment on Friday, June 13th, 2014 when Nicole came home I felt she was my daughter, I felt she was meant to be here, I felt she was here to stay. And on May 5th, almost one year later, we were blessed to make it all official.
It was a
drizzly morning on our way to the court house, the time was somehow
mixed up, Erin and Ben and Josh's mom and dad and sister all literally
made it just in time, and Laura and Eric raced to get to the court house
because they were stuck in traffic and walked in just as the judge
signed the adoption papers. Everything happened all way too fast and we
were rushed because the judge had another case she had to get in, and in
the blink of an eye the celebration in that court room # 2 was done and
over. I wanted to do it all over again, to sit back and take it all in,
to make it all last longer.
We were surrounded by many of our
closest family members and friends in that court room- the people who
have been there for us through all of this. In the car, on our way to
the courthouse, Josh mentioned how it was really a bittersweet day and
it got me thinking. Adoption really is such a bittersweet thing. A loss
for Nicole's biological parents, a separation of a daughter from her
biological mother and father and siblings and extended family, and all
of the obstacles and hard times we overcame to get here over the past
six years. A second daughter we have been hoping and wishing for for
years. Kennadie becoming a big sister. Nicole gaining a big sister
and a mom and dad who love her dearly. So many friends and
family members who adore her. A bond so incredibly strong between the
four of us that it proves a family is what you make it, that
biologically or not it doesn't matter, we are all connected so deeply
and it is such a beautiful thing. She was the missing piece all of these
years and we could not imagine life without her. She was meant to be
here, we were meant to be here, they were meant to be sisters, we were
meant to be her parents. Kennadie made me a mom and Nicole has made that emptiness and sadness
and longing that I had in my heart for years disappear.
Words can never express how blessed I feel to have my two girls and how
deeply I love both of them.
This was such a
beautiful day that began with my two girls getting ready to officially
become sisters and me and Josh getting to officially become parents to
The drizzle continued as we walked into the court house and, thankfully
everyone made it in that room to celebrate with us. There were many of
us in that room, friends and family who I am so, so ridiculously grateful for.
The judge said it was the most people she has ever seen at an adoption,
and told us that just shows her how much love there is. Love and celebration filled that court room (as
well as some tears that I saw when looking around the room).
I am so thankful that Ben took photos for us because although I
had my camera I wanted to try to be in the moment as much as possible
and didn't get many photos with my phone and absolutely none with my
"real" camera. He was able to catch so many in-between moments that I am
grateful we have.
After the finalization we went out to brunch to celebrate this beautiful
and amazing little girl that we waited so long for. I really
could not be more proud of the obstacles we have overcome to get here.
I am so happy to be where we are and be so blessed to have these family members and friends.