I was able to meet Ivy & some others from MotherWoman for dinner before the book event. I really enjoyed my time with them & getting to know these women a little better. Throughout dinner, Ivy kept checking the time. I could tell she was nervous. (This was her first book signing & all!) She already had many women there supporting her & we all knew she would be amazing.
The event was intimate & extremely comforting. Before Ivy got up to the podium to speak, women who attended were encouraged to share their stories with a Postpartum Mood Disorder to the others in the room if we wanted to. Because of my good luck, Liz from MotherWoman looked at me & asked if I wanted to start.
Speaking in front of a crowd petrifies me. Seriously, I dropped out of college because of the horrible anxiety I had when having to speak in front of my classmates.
It’s pretty freakin’ bad.
I wanted to be a part of this though & the only way to do that was to step out of my comfort zone. So I sucked it up & shared a little bit of what I went through. I am sure I turned a fiery shade of red & probably rambled on instead of just saying what I wanted to, but I am proud that I at least did it.
Uttering the words I have intrusive thoughts is still such a scary & uncomfortable thing to say out loud. I knew that at this event though, I wasn’t being judged. In fact, about 90% of the room raised their hands when asked how many others have had intrusive thoughts.
Huh! I was shocked to see that I wasn't the only one.
After some of us shared our stories it was time for Ivy to speak. Once she began, all I could focus on was her words. She explained details so clearly that I could visualize what she had been through while struggling with Postpartum Depression. I was able to feel her pain & have a better understanding of what it is like to battle insomnia. I could relate to the frustration she had with doctors & trying to overcome this.
Ivy did a beautiful job speaking. I know she will give many women the courage to reach out for help & will inspire others to talk openly about their experience with a Postpartum Mood Disorder.
To not only live through the nightmare of a Postpartum Mood Disorder but then to speak openly about it, write a book & give others hope that they too can get through this, is inspiring to me.
It is because of women like Ivy & all the women who talk about Postpartum Mood Disorders that others are becoming less afraid to reach out for help. It is because of these women that others realize they are not alone & begin to understand that it is more common than many of us think.
You can check out Ivy's book on Amazon here.