Monday, March 26, 2012


Last weekend for my 30th birthday Josh & I decided to get some new ink. I have 3 tattoos already & the last time I had one done I was in my early 20's so I was about due for something new. I have wanted a new tattoo for over a year now that has real meaning to me & symbolizes my struggle with ppa/ppocd & kicking ppd ass. 

This tattoo for me is a part of my healing. 

Did I really need to have a needle filled with permanent black ink stinging my upper back for 45 minutes to heal? Does a word engraved on my body forever somehow heal me? 

No. But in some weird way it is healing to me

I chose the word strength for my tattoo because it was the word that held the most meaning to me while going through that tough time in my life. I had to be strong. I still have to be strong...every day. I had to dig deep, really deep to find inner strength that I didn’t even know existed.

I am now reminded (numerous times a day) that I had the strength to keep going when things got tough. 

I am reminded that finding that strength in me has made me a better person. 

I am a stronger person. 

I am reminded that I am finally in a better place, a place that I never thought I would be in. 

If this ever happens to me again (or whatever obstacle in life is thrown my way) I will be reminded that I once had enough strength to get through a horrible time, I can do it again if I ever have to. 

my new ink. 

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.-unknown.  

People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long. -unknown.  

When something bad happens you have three choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you or you can let it strengthen you. -unknown.  


Ivy said...

Wow, what better way to remember that you are strong and you are a survivor! said...

The tattoo looks great. Going through an ordeal such as ppd really takes its toll emotionally and physically, and to come out of it takes strength. You definitely are a stronger person.

Andrea said...

haha I know. Kinda drastic right? But I had thought about it for a long time, it's healing for me :)