Sunday, March 18, 2012

my next thirty years

Where does the time go? I can’t believe tomorrow I will be 30. I have been freaking out about this for a while now. I hate getting older, I really do. I wish I could say it doesn't bother me but it does. I even freaked myself out the other day thinking I saw a piece of gray hair, but it wasn’t…phew. I am not sure what I am so afraid of. I mean 30 isn’t old & I still feel like I am 24 so it’s no big deal right? Right??

I always used to try to rush life. I couldn’t wait to turn 16 to drive, 18 to graduate, 21 to drink (legally). It’s different now. I try to hold on to each day for as long as I can & savor every moment. There are moments where I would love to stop time & stay in that place forever.

I have no choice, I am turning 30 in less than 24 hours whether I like it or not. I am going to try to suck it up & stay positive. I want to make these years the best years. 

I am looking forward to giving Kennadie siblings, to continue on this beautiful journey with my hubby & I hope to renew our vows in the islands & return to the USVI each year.

I am looking forward to the time I will spend with friends & family & to the memories we will make.

I want to continue working on myself, to learn to accept & love myself & to gain confidence in myself. 

I look forward to hopefully finishing college & working in the direction of helping other moms who have been through a postpartum mood disorder.

I am looking forward to getting to know other survivor moms who I have found through twitter, blogs & fb. 

I look forward to getting the support I have been looking for & to support others. 

I look forward to enjoying each day! 

 I guess it doesn't sound too bad after all...Here’s to turning 30!  

Tim McGraw-My Next Thirty Years

6 comments:

Kimberly said...

Happy early birthday.
30 isn't so bad. It's really just a number. Besides, you can always say what I say "I stopped having birthdays after I turned 25"...so na na na na....
xoox

Andrea said...

haha thanks! Sounds good, would love to be 25 with ya every year :)

More Than Mommies said...

Happy Birthday!

I love that song! I can honestly say that 30 didn't bother me...25 was a big deal for some reason, though. I think it was because I felt like an adult when I was 25 and I realized that the next birthday that would be significant would probably be the one where I became an "official" senior citizen...wait, this isn't helping, is it?

Anyway, I will be 35 in less than a month and I hadn't even thought about it until yesterday when I was talking to a friend who told me how old her husband was (we are the same age).

Age truly is just a number! Enjoy every minute of your next 30 years!!!

Ray said...

Happy Birthday !! I know how you feel. Im turning 30 in may . Freaked out by it but playing it cool.

Andrea said...

hahaha, no not helping lol!

My husband will be 35 in May so he is right there with ya!

I agree, age is just a number but I will admit it was a little hard for me knowing I am not in my twenties anymore.

Thank you!!

Andrea said...

Thank you!

So funny how we have gone from turning 17, 18...& now 30 together!! We will grow to be old fuddy duddies together ok?!